Peaches & Cream

Feeling stressed out again. Although the smell of sea water still lingers in my nostrils, the splish splashing of the buttery waves still echoes in my ears, the taste of salt still on the tip of my tongue & the chill of a solitary desert night still in my bones. Been somewhat stressed lately, trying to hold the feeling at bay, trying to stay connected to God in my heart. Yesterday I felt the pressure intensifying & figured it’s about time I hit the high way again. I went all the way to 200 something, greeted my ocean with love & heard it whisper back that it missed me. I wished that we still had the beach house so that I would get to spend the night, then wake up at dawn, head back home & then to work. And I’d do it too! Our beach house, X beach house really, has witnessed many a night when I was its only inhabitant. People sometimes ask me how I do these things on my own & how come I’m not afraid, I usually reply that I guess I’m just nuts that way! Smooth silence in which sounds reverberated greeted me, defining & beautiful, the silky touch of the waters on the palm of my hand icy & ever so magical. I sat there for a long time in a delicious oneness with the lapping waves & the distant seagulls floating serenely; letting out a cry now & then. Two boats passed by as I contemplated my solitary state, small & insignificant before that vast ocean & felt at peace. I am exactly where I should be, heading exactly where I want to go, I have no reason to feel down or betrayed by life. Like those flowing waves she is leading me gently in the direction of my visions. When I left I blew it all a kiss, thanked God again for making it so beautiful & went home with that peace in my heart still intact.

Alas, I stayed up late at night trying to upload some damn pictures that just wouldn’t come out right (&*%#@&*%), ended up not getting enough sleep & today I am stressed again! How easily these human flaws creep in on a person! Or is it my hormones again? it’s almost my time anyway! Well, whatever, those waves are still flapping both far away at the end of 200 something & right here in my head between the borders of my scull. And as long as I still have a light of existence between my eyes they will continue to glide inside of me, I will always feel their presence & love their every drop. So don’t worry .. be happy :)

Because it was already dark when I started my trip I didn’t get to visit Mount S. maybe I’ll go there again tomorrow, maybe I’ll even take someone with me, though not many of my kin are really into such escapades & the road is too long for Fatso who suffers a terrible case of car sickness! Maybe I’ll take him along anyway.