I'm sorry .. I don't fit in :)
I will not wake up at 5 in the morning to apply full makeup .. I’ll wake up in my own sweet time .. I will apply my mascara and my lipstick .. if I’m in a good mood I might use shadow .. and if I’m tired I’ll apply some concealor to hide the dark circles under my eyes so u won’t see them ..I will not mask myself like u do .. I didn’t come here to look pretty .. guess I don’t fit in ..
Well I'll be a good girl.. I won’t skip class .. don’t expect me to dress in the latest fashion though ... I’ll come to school in my faithful pair of jeans, a T-shirt & my tennis shoes .. yeah .. the ones that were so amusingly referred to once as “jooti al3ab” :) that tickled me pink! I will come to school like that .. let me learn .. and let me go .. right Bozz? I think niether of us fits in :)
If u smile at me I’ll smile bk .. and my eyes will wish u peace .. don’t expect me to see u if ur following me around in my car though .. I will not notice u .. cuz then u would be bothering me .. and I tend to not see things that bother me .. guess I don’t fit in
I will not “gizz” with u on crowded streets .. I drive either to get somewhere .. or for my sole pleasure .. wind, speed, music .. space .. not to be stuck at traffic lights for 15 minutes surrounded by eyes & flashy cars! Guess I don’t fit in
Take me out for a cruse on a high way .. I’ll stick my head outta the window and scream at the top of my lungs .. I will pull my head bk shivering and squealing with joy .. I will hug u .. and thank u for the loveliest time .. didn’t I always D?
I will not come to ur gatherings .. where u stare .. and u talk about him and her .. smile in each others faces .. laugh behind each others backs .. it’s just not in me .. guess I don’t fit in .. you shoulda known better D.
Take me to a party .. where u guarantee everybody will be smiling & having a jam .. I’ll take ur hand and dance with u till there’s no one left and they have to kick us out .. Beautiful Maya :) .. life was good to us .. u ended up taking it too seriously though.. or maybe I didn’t quite fit in .
Now don’t you take me home after that rockin party! .. I’ll be too hyper .. at 7 am walk with me bare footed on the beach .. lets gather shells & old car plates :) ... and draw pictures in the sand ... Remember the stuff we used to gather D? :) I really do miss our bestest friend days .. but I think I was too peaceful for ur angry moods .. or maybe I just don’t fit in !
And if some day you should take me out simply for a good time, don’t expect me to behave. My father is the first man in my life, and he taught me to always be my natural normal self, inside or outside. He did not say it in words, he demonstrated it his everyday attitude. And my mother taught me to be good and kind. So you see, I may not behave, but I will not offend …. It sounds as if I don’t fit in!!
BUT!! Take me to the beach at 2am mid December.. I’ll dare you and jump in fully clothed & immediately get out .. shaking and shivering all over like an old lady ... laughing like a loony toon .. remember brother :) you laughed so hard!! .. guess maybe we don’t fit in :)
I’m sorry .. if I don’t fit into ur purrrfect little worlds .. :) I have my own.
This is directed to many ppl and no one in particular ..
posted by Peach @ 8:27 AM
20 Comments:
I think I have to add .. something like :)
Please don’t feel offended dear readers. This post is merely a mix of self deceleration, reminisces with a friend, my brother & a silent goodbye to X-best friends who will never know that in my heart they are still and always friends :)
I like it ;) very nice....
Thanks Maryam :)
guess that would make you an unfitter inner too eh!lol
happy to see you in my little haven :)
I've been known looooooooong back that I'm an UNFIT. And you can add nouns after the unfit till you reach infinity. Heheheeeeeee
So I guess I do belong to your club Peach :)
hmm, wonder which part I would like to try with you ;)
That was beautiful.
Peach
Allow me to add:
Most people have critical eyes when they meet others, but I don't. I only have a critical eye when I look in the mirror to fix my makeup; that is if and when I wear makeup. So when you meet me, don't bother to look your best, for my eyes do not see the blemishes, they only search beauty, I guess, in that sense, I also don't fit.
If god has blessed you with luck and fortune, I will not envy you, on the contrary; I wish you more. I wish also the same for myself. I believe in god's wealth and abundance. I do not believe that your misfortune adds to my fortune; your minus does not = my plus, rather; your plus + my plus brings me ultimate happiness. I guess in that sense also I do not fit.
Tadreen aku blooza maktoob 3alaygha "You're all laughing at me cuz I'm different but I'm laughing at you cuz you're all the same. Madree 7asayt inha layga hnee :P
I LOVE this post! '7ala9 hathy my fave post min your whole blog :)
Purgy ol’ boy … I would gladly do any & all with you :) BUT!! Knowing how unpredictable & purposely uncivilized you can be :P I’ll tell you that we are defiantly NOT going to be alone lol
Brachy .. I wish the same and more for you :)
Why were u scratching your head though ?!!!
That means that you either didn't get it. Or! u think i'm KuKu :P so which one is it? :)
Shroomi :P & Bitz .. hope you don't mind me calling you that toomi, it sounds kinda cute :D
What I find truly beautiful is the synergy of all the comments :)
It makes you think …
That all of us really do fit in! Only our community is perhaps slightly further spread than our door steps & the multitude of “others” we must deal with every day.
I find that deliciously heart warming (^.^)
Sweetest Rabab :)
You are such a special species of human!
It’s my honor to "fit" with you and be an unfitter by your side :)
Bitz hun, I have an extra word for you :)
You don’t need to know how ppl feel about you,. all you need is how you feel about them and about urself.. Nourish your feelings and always keep them pure’n’good :) the blue print for pure feelings is laid out in any religion & any society. But I’m not asking you to look into those, that would be conforming. I want you to look at the blue prints in your own mind, and be your own architect, that would be individuality.
The beauty of it is that when you feel good and pure, you will start to shine & your shine will attract to you ppl with shines similar to yours :) And you will not be alone anymore.
There is solace and peace for you, lost somewhere in your own heart, but you are the only one who can find them. Dig in, spring clean if you will :) Find the sad Bo inside of you, take him by the hand, kiss his forehead, tell him that it’s all gonna be alright & promise him you will never loose him again :)
In simpler terms, you need to feel good about yourself for the sake of yourself. Humans need affection & unconditional love. That is the food of the soul. So stop holding back and give it to yourself. Be good to Bo :)
P.S. The shine I'm talking about is real. It’s called positive energy. I believe in energies, but I do not have enough related knowledge to elaborate.
Maybe Rabab would like to tell us about them :) I’m sure my guru can explain it all in the simplest of terms. That’s why she’s my guru ;)
D’n’G !!
I LOVE that shirt!!! I think I might write that on my car! Lol
And between you and me .. *whispers* I think it’s my favorite post too :)
Xception :)
Welcome to blogy land, where it seems that no one fits in :)
It’s the perfect place for unfitters like us innit? :D
And No, I do not want to be like everyone else. I do not want to be a copy cat. I am happy and content being just who I am :)
It’s good to do crazy things once in a while. It’s good to feel the beauty of life & mother nature to the limit. It’s good to explore. It’s good to live. :)
I’m glad we have that in common. If only all humans had that in common, allot of things might have been different. :)
I now quote and second my dear friend marumba when he said: “ Live to Love. And Love to Live!”. (^.^)
Ruby.. didn’t I just say you were special :)
The Critical Eye. Not good. His nose is too big! How come u didn’t notice his beautiful eyes? Her face is too long! Didn’t you notice she has a heart of gold?
This is a true story:
My uncle took me, my brother & his kids to the Entertainment City once “el tarfeehiya”. I don’t remember how old I was. But I remember that my eyes were still blissfully, ignorantly innocent. And I remember that me and my cousin were the best of friends :) We found the Entertainment City closed. So my uncle decided to cruse around instead. I loved the places my uncle used to take us :) This time, he took us to a sandy place where you can park right in front of the Gulf and look at “om el-namil” island. He said that when the tide is low you could actually drive through the sea to the island (in a jeep of course). There were fishermen & fishermen huts all around us …
Here is parts of what we said, my cousin & I that day:
C: ewww it’s so dirty here!!
Me: would you look at all those fishermen! & actually living right here .. there so lucky!
C: look at all that garbage!!
Me: look at that sky!!!
C: There must be a million rats here!!
Me: omg! Look at all those seagulls!!
C: Dad!! Come ON lets go lets go…
Me: I’m not going anywhere! I could live here forever!!
Needless to say, I had a ball. My cousin hated every minute of it!
I have just demonstrated how the party with the critical eye is actually the loosing party.
Which is worth seeing to you? beautiful or ugly? Wouldn’t it be nice to see nothing but beauty? Kill the Critical Eye.
Envy. Not good. If any of you should find a sliver of it in your hearts, be quick to dispose of it. It will only hurt you in the end. It will blacken your heart till you can’t find it anymore! You will be miserable.
Here is a little prayer I heard my mother’s best friend say once when she was talking about someone who had something nice.
“Mashallah laylah ella allah, allah yzeedhom o ya36eena inshalla “.
I have adopted these words into my vocabulary ever since & I beseech you to do the same. Regardless of all else, the words themselves will cleans you of envy. Kill the Envy.
Ruff translation for Bitz :)
“what god wills. No god but god. May god bring them more, and may he also give to us”.
Help bloggers!! my translation is "ayshay"(anything)!!!
Marumboooo :D
Mashallah 3alek 3omrik 6weel .. I had just posted the comment where I quote u when I saw ur comment!! :)
Thanks sweety .. I too join you in tipping my hat :)
Specially to my mother :)
Bitz .. hmm
You have a lovely way of putting it. But somehow I’m not convinced. I believe in Pisece too much to believe you :)
The shine you are talking about is called the positive vibrations; an example of that is when you meet a person for the first time and you feel drawn to that person, he brings stillness to your mind although you don't know him. Anther example is visiting a holy ground (even if the place is not related to your own religion) you would feel this mind stillness and relaxed feelings. And if anyone is interested to know more about the concept of energy, it is all in my humble blog and you are welcome to pay a visit.
thanx guru :)
POWER TO YOU SISTER...I just love what you wrote...you know what sweetie who wants to be a clone? I think people lost their identity some where along the way. We need more leaders not followers. I just remembered the last time I went back home I had to do double takes on a lot of the girls because I couldn't believe my eyes every girl looked identical to me. So I’m glad you are unfit because I do belong to that club too. By the way the more I read your posts and comments the more I feel I have known you for years :)
This post can easily be turned into a Hugo boss perfume or Levis jeans advertisement. chic!
i think you should let ur (ex-)friends kno u still think of them, i dunno..
A/way i like the rebel theme ;)
Peach: Don't worry... you joined my club and that's my life. What do you expect from an astronaut girl wanna be :P and thanks for voting ;)
Oh Gee thanks guys this is really sweet :)
Jelly Been, I’m not sure I can be termed leader or follower. I mean .. I might follow once in a while but mostly I feel I’m just a wanderer, and i'm not so sure if it's a good idea having more leaders u know what I mean lol. Hmm :) U think maybe we knew each other in a past life :P or maybe it’s just our Positive Vibrations (^.^)
Uz ur so sweet :) But I’m all for the future, those in the past will be fondly remembered. But my goodbyes have already been said :)
Maryam hun, I expect her to be all She wants to be (^.^) least I can do :P
& Shady! CooL hehee, ur almost un impressible :) I’m glad :)
Dear marumba, I hereby join all my energies and vibrations with Urs (^.^)
evildower, it's never too late to have your say dear and I'm glad u did ;) I'm sorry about your friends. But the truth is I've found that friends are never lost. They come into our lives when we need them or when they need us .. and for a while we share so much and help each other so much.. But in the end when the purpose is over there is always a time to say goodbye.. so why not say it with love.. I got your good times & ur lessons and u got mine ;)
m, Thanks hon lol. Actually I think the reason alot of ppl like this post is that it applies to many of us. Now isn't that a comforting thougth? Looks like we do fit in after all ;)
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